793. So what is the being's own deepest sense of this, its own highest "self" or "I" like?
Well, here there can be only one type of sense,
namely a "sense of centre or midpoint".
All of us without exception feel that the I is the most profound part in the midpoint of our own organism.
Nothing more can be sensed in our own centre than precisely the I.
As soon as a sensation diverges from this centre, we immediately express it as "it".
When we say "my organism", it is in really only another way of saying "I" and "it", which means "I" and "movement" and thereby "I" and "sensory perception".
And this is how it will be in absolutely every situation that we can sense.
As soon as there is a sensation, and thereby sensory perception and manifestation, it can be expressed only in one or another form of "I" and "it".
When we say "I saw", "I felt", "I gave" and so on, all these situations, all these forms of manifestation, experience or sensory perception, will really be merely a sense of the I's separation from "it", just as the purpose of every single expression is also merely to emphasise it.
When we, as already mentioned, say for example "I saw", this "I" and "saw" will be two different things, namely "I" and "it", which are in turn respectively the same as the "fixed point" and "movement".
And as the "fixed point" is in turn the same as stillness we cannot deny the identity of the I as "something" that exists that has no other analysis than simply that "it is".
We can clearly see here how the I appears fundamentally as the immovable centre of the consciousness.
Nothing can get beyond this.
It is in itself the innermost centre.
Everything that can be mentioned in connection with the I can be sensed only as separate from it.
And consequently, all experiences in themselves will merely emphasise it.
To deny its existence is to contradict our own everyday experience, which is in turn the same as to contradict the facts, thereby giving expression to the fact that one is disorientated and lives in an illusion.
The truth is that our entire experience of life, our entire manifestation and sensory perception, can exist only as an experience of "I" and "it".
The "I" is what cannot be sensed, and "it" is what can be sensed.
We cannot obliterate this "I", even if it is in itself quite inaccessible to sensory perception.
It is, and will remain, the "fixed point" around which all "movement" rotates, and the "something" into whose inaccessibility to sensory perception the Alpha and Omega or the beginning and ending of all manifestation and creation disappears.
But as every kind of experience, every sensory impression, every sensation, enters into this sensorially inaccessible "something" of ours, just as every wish or desire for action and manifestation emerges from within this very "something" that is beyond terrain, time and space, its existence is thereby visible as one of the most living facts that can possibly exist.
And here we have seen the existence of the "divine something" or the confirmation of the "triune principle" in the form of our very own sense of our existence and experience of life and consciousness.
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